A tribute to that special someone in my life!

by Romantic Lover
Whatever you need to hear
Where ever you walk with me
Whatever your heart desires
As long as together we can be
On a hot scorching desert
While my feet are burning redS
hooting up my veins
Cause I see you up ahead
On a blistery snowy day
My face is dry and cold
I would walk the distance
So your hands I could hold
Exhausted and drained
Yet I'd stay up all night
Just to watch you sleep
Well that's a wondrous sight
I would fly the seven seas
To get a hug from you
Your arms, my favorite place
Yes, its absolutely trueI've already passed the extreme
Passed the normal limitI always want you to be happy
Even if you I had to quitI can not change my thoughts
Nor can I change my views
You said you loved me for meIf I changed, me would you refuse
I have suffered a lot of pain
I've loved you through all the fights
I've cried myself to sleep
On many long, lonely nights
As I think about loveI always keep in mind
To express myself fullyDon't keep anything behind
Whatever you need to hear
Where ever you walk with me
Whatever your heart desires
As long as together we can be.

Pro Life

This post might hitting some nerves somewhere, but I feel very strongly about this topic. For anyone qwho don't like it, this is not for you to like, this is how I view the matter. After a child is conceived, that fetus has every right to experience life as the next. We have all these activists who are trying to say or deternmine when conceptionactully occurs.Shut up. Any time you want to go and terminate another life is wrong unless there are extreme circumstances which I will let you know how I see that matter. What burns my ass is that the helpless baby has no voice in ther matter, but yet we have people deciding if it should live or die? Where is the reasoning behind that? Pretty much while inside the mother, its life is a gamble. The only instance I would even consider accepting an abortion is: if the child is so young and she was raped ,AND if she continued to full term, she would take the chance on killing the baby and her. Well as I sit here, I can not think of anyother secerno that would cause me to think other wise. There are adoption agency's out there to take infants from mothers that cants support them/ or what makes me sick is when they just dont want them. They did not ask to be born let me say that again. Take responsibility for spreading your legs. And fathers. be a MAN and take care of oyur kids. You wa samn enough to help bring them into the world, so be MAN enough to help take care of them!!

Sleep

The subject of sleep is a very over rated one in my opinion. Granted, we all need sleep to function right, but are we sleeping away to much of our lives? The answer to that question is Yes. I believe we are. Now five years ago, sleep was my best friend. Go to work, come home party, and sleep. Next day repeat the cycle. After careful thought about the matter, I came to the realization that sleeping is taking over. For instance: If the (average) person sleeps 8 hours a day, which i admit is a little more than I do now, but. If you an average of 8hrs a night in the course of a month you would have slept away240 hrs of your time. Which is equivalent to 10 days of of the month. WOW 1/3 of your month was spent sleeping. I'll take it a bit farther: In one years time you would have spent 2920 hours sleeping. which is equal to 121 days or approximate 4 months out of the year. So to make this even more depressing.. for every 3 years your alive. the average person would have slept away 1 year of there life! So with that being said. I officially limit the number of hours of sleep to no more than 6. Preferably 5 if I can manage. And believe me lately;y I have been sleeping on average of 4-5 hours a day. So sleep as little as possible and get out there and enjoy life and live it, don't sleep it!!

Working on Holiday's

So here it is one day before Thanksgiving. I am sad to report to my network of friends that you can find Ray at Wal-mart tomorrow afternoon into the wee hours of "Black Friday" Dont get me wrong, I dont mind .. well ya I do working on a holiday, becasue I don't see any of my family near enough as it is, and It seems that I use holidays to catch up on what has happnened throughout the year. But Even with me working.. atleast have me work an early shift so we could actully go somewhere. Hell, I'm working 4pm-1am That dosent give me too many options now does it?Erica has to go in at midnight I just wish they could do something thats all. I'm already planning on clocking back in at 5am and help cashier for the madness. Anytime that they offer for us to get overtime, I am right there. Belive me its very few and far between. I just hate the fact that for the first time in since I can remember my thanksgiving will be sort of a bust, unless I can convence my manager to let my come in either extrenmely early, or arrive late in the evening. None the less, I am still thankful for what I have!!

A new Place!

Well its is time once again for our annual move in/move out party!! Erica and I will hopefully know by the end of today if we get to move in our dream apartment! Believe me though, it has not been a walk in the park with this one. I have grown to realize things, for one, if it is something that you really want, its not just going to fall in your lap and say "here I am Ray" You have to work for them and be prepared to play the waiting game while waiting by the phone and every time it rings, jump to check the caller-Id heart racing because it could be the call you have been waiting for. We deserve a new pace to live, and especially one that we have bee looking at for 3 years now. We can finally afford to live there. Aw.. it would be so nice to wake up, go to the workout room. Workout, then take a shower and go to work. Yes.. that sounds awesome. I also love the notion of playing pool in the club house. Like I said we have moved all overb our five yarstogether, but let me tell you this, If we do get this place, we will stay put for at least 2 years, unless something drastic or unforeseen develops.!!

Almost finished

Well it's the last week of English and I'm excited. Excited for one because I get
to move on to my next class, and also because I cant wait to find out what
grade I will be receiving. Coming down to the last week you would have
thought that Iwould be right where I need to be, WRONG!! Anybody that
knows a little about Ray, knows that I ,for some ungodly reason, like to wait
until the last possible moment to accomplish anything. Hm mm.... maybe
I need a prescription of Wellburtun, my teacher was half way
joking about it, and I agree with her. I need something out there that will
calm my brain down to a speed that I can actually concentrate on one or possibly two things at once, and not be sitting here thinking about my love life, our new apartment, work, Christmas, thanksgiving, OK so those are actual thoughts going through my mind right now. After all the channel changing, I can still manage to write a decent flowing paragraph!

A New beginning

So I, well I believe (we) have reached a point in our lives that a new beginning is happening right now! Life right now is seeming to finally fall into place. Sue I've had my ups and downs along the way, but I truly believe that I have leveled out!
One of my really good friends welcomed us into his home and I will be forever thankful for his generosity. The moments that I experienced here was awwsome. I even enjoyed the conversations that I had, because I feel like that somehow they had a positive impact. My relationship is moving onto the next level. Don't get me wrong, I do still feel bad for the way/comments that I have previously said that has hurt not only her, but has bruised me as well. I'm so grateful for her never-ending genuine love she has for me. I only hope that deep down inside she knows how much I feel lucky nad I'm appreciate her in my life!
With that said, we are going to start a new chapter in our lives. We are so excited about moving into our own place. This plave will be different than previous one's. WE actully plan on staying in our new apartment for atleast 2 years. It will be a place that will be "homely" and we will not mind staying home. She and I are excitied about decorating/ and buying new things. I'm so thrilled, just because I can tell that she is thrilled.
I only hope to bring happiness to her in whatever she wants/needs. And I know that she will do the same for me in return. Sometimes the simpliest things in life mean more to me than the most complex. Just gazing into her eyes and sharing our love without even a word being said!
I will still be there for my friends just like before. If they ever need anything they know I'm only a phone call away.
I just want to enjoy life. I also just want to experience love and be loved. Which by the way could not be going any better for me right now! Thank you baby for being there for me in every way!