A tribute to that special someone in my life!

by Romantic Lover
Whatever you need to hear
Where ever you walk with me
Whatever your heart desires
As long as together we can be
On a hot scorching desert
While my feet are burning redS
hooting up my veins
Cause I see you up ahead
On a blistery snowy day
My face is dry and cold
I would walk the distance
So your hands I could hold
Exhausted and drained
Yet I'd stay up all night
Just to watch you sleep
Well that's a wondrous sight
I would fly the seven seas
To get a hug from you
Your arms, my favorite place
Yes, its absolutely trueI've already passed the extreme
Passed the normal limitI always want you to be happy
Even if you I had to quitI can not change my thoughts
Nor can I change my views
You said you loved me for meIf I changed, me would you refuse
I have suffered a lot of pain
I've loved you through all the fights
I've cried myself to sleep
On many long, lonely nights
As I think about loveI always keep in mind
To express myself fullyDon't keep anything behind
Whatever you need to hear
Where ever you walk with me
Whatever your heart desires
As long as together we can be.

Pro Life

This post might hitting some nerves somewhere, but I feel very strongly about this topic. For anyone qwho don't like it, this is not for you to like, this is how I view the matter. After a child is conceived, that fetus has every right to experience life as the next. We have all these activists who are trying to say or deternmine when conceptionactully occurs.Shut up. Any time you want to go and terminate another life is wrong unless there are extreme circumstances which I will let you know how I see that matter. What burns my ass is that the helpless baby has no voice in ther matter, but yet we have people deciding if it should live or die? Where is the reasoning behind that? Pretty much while inside the mother, its life is a gamble. The only instance I would even consider accepting an abortion is: if the child is so young and she was raped ,AND if she continued to full term, she would take the chance on killing the baby and her. Well as I sit here, I can not think of anyother secerno that would cause me to think other wise. There are adoption agency's out there to take infants from mothers that cants support them/ or what makes me sick is when they just dont want them. They did not ask to be born let me say that again. Take responsibility for spreading your legs. And fathers. be a MAN and take care of oyur kids. You wa samn enough to help bring them into the world, so be MAN enough to help take care of them!!

Sleep

The subject of sleep is a very over rated one in my opinion. Granted, we all need sleep to function right, but are we sleeping away to much of our lives? The answer to that question is Yes. I believe we are. Now five years ago, sleep was my best friend. Go to work, come home party, and sleep. Next day repeat the cycle. After careful thought about the matter, I came to the realization that sleeping is taking over. For instance: If the (average) person sleeps 8 hours a day, which i admit is a little more than I do now, but. If you an average of 8hrs a night in the course of a month you would have slept away240 hrs of your time. Which is equivalent to 10 days of of the month. WOW 1/3 of your month was spent sleeping. I'll take it a bit farther: In one years time you would have spent 2920 hours sleeping. which is equal to 121 days or approximate 4 months out of the year. So to make this even more depressing.. for every 3 years your alive. the average person would have slept away 1 year of there life! So with that being said. I officially limit the number of hours of sleep to no more than 6. Preferably 5 if I can manage. And believe me lately;y I have been sleeping on average of 4-5 hours a day. So sleep as little as possible and get out there and enjoy life and live it, don't sleep it!!

Working on Holiday's

So here it is one day before Thanksgiving. I am sad to report to my network of friends that you can find Ray at Wal-mart tomorrow afternoon into the wee hours of "Black Friday" Dont get me wrong, I dont mind .. well ya I do working on a holiday, becasue I don't see any of my family near enough as it is, and It seems that I use holidays to catch up on what has happnened throughout the year. But Even with me working.. atleast have me work an early shift so we could actully go somewhere. Hell, I'm working 4pm-1am That dosent give me too many options now does it?Erica has to go in at midnight I just wish they could do something thats all. I'm already planning on clocking back in at 5am and help cashier for the madness. Anytime that they offer for us to get overtime, I am right there. Belive me its very few and far between. I just hate the fact that for the first time in since I can remember my thanksgiving will be sort of a bust, unless I can convence my manager to let my come in either extrenmely early, or arrive late in the evening. None the less, I am still thankful for what I have!!

A new Place!

Well its is time once again for our annual move in/move out party!! Erica and I will hopefully know by the end of today if we get to move in our dream apartment! Believe me though, it has not been a walk in the park with this one. I have grown to realize things, for one, if it is something that you really want, its not just going to fall in your lap and say "here I am Ray" You have to work for them and be prepared to play the waiting game while waiting by the phone and every time it rings, jump to check the caller-Id heart racing because it could be the call you have been waiting for. We deserve a new pace to live, and especially one that we have bee looking at for 3 years now. We can finally afford to live there. Aw.. it would be so nice to wake up, go to the workout room. Workout, then take a shower and go to work. Yes.. that sounds awesome. I also love the notion of playing pool in the club house. Like I said we have moved all overb our five yarstogether, but let me tell you this, If we do get this place, we will stay put for at least 2 years, unless something drastic or unforeseen develops.!!

Almost finished

Well it's the last week of English and I'm excited. Excited for one because I get
to move on to my next class, and also because I cant wait to find out what
grade I will be receiving. Coming down to the last week you would have
thought that Iwould be right where I need to be, WRONG!! Anybody that
knows a little about Ray, knows that I ,for some ungodly reason, like to wait
until the last possible moment to accomplish anything. Hm mm.... maybe
I need a prescription of Wellburtun, my teacher was half way
joking about it, and I agree with her. I need something out there that will
calm my brain down to a speed that I can actually concentrate on one or possibly two things at once, and not be sitting here thinking about my love life, our new apartment, work, Christmas, thanksgiving, OK so those are actual thoughts going through my mind right now. After all the channel changing, I can still manage to write a decent flowing paragraph!

A New beginning

So I, well I believe (we) have reached a point in our lives that a new beginning is happening right now! Life right now is seeming to finally fall into place. Sue I've had my ups and downs along the way, but I truly believe that I have leveled out!
One of my really good friends welcomed us into his home and I will be forever thankful for his generosity. The moments that I experienced here was awwsome. I even enjoyed the conversations that I had, because I feel like that somehow they had a positive impact. My relationship is moving onto the next level. Don't get me wrong, I do still feel bad for the way/comments that I have previously said that has hurt not only her, but has bruised me as well. I'm so grateful for her never-ending genuine love she has for me. I only hope that deep down inside she knows how much I feel lucky nad I'm appreciate her in my life!
With that said, we are going to start a new chapter in our lives. We are so excited about moving into our own place. This plave will be different than previous one's. WE actully plan on staying in our new apartment for atleast 2 years. It will be a place that will be "homely" and we will not mind staying home. She and I are excitied about decorating/ and buying new things. I'm so thrilled, just because I can tell that she is thrilled.
I only hope to bring happiness to her in whatever she wants/needs. And I know that she will do the same for me in return. Sometimes the simpliest things in life mean more to me than the most complex. Just gazing into her eyes and sharing our love without even a word being said!
I will still be there for my friends just like before. If they ever need anything they know I'm only a phone call away.
I just want to enjoy life. I also just want to experience love and be loved. Which by the way could not be going any better for me right now! Thank you baby for being there for me in every way!

Only You

Ihad a hundred dollar ring in my hand
So weak and tired i could barely stand
From being up all night
Praying she'd say yes
So with a hopefull heartI hit one knee
With a tear in her eye she looked at me
It was the moment of truth i was scared to death
My life hung on what that tear meant
Then she smiled at me
And i lost it
No one can make me cry, make me laugh
Make me smile but drive me mad like she doesI
t's like a curse that is the cure
Better or worse one thing is for sure
It is real love
And i don't know what i'd do
If i lost it

Well the honeymoon ended and life began
Jobs and bills, losing touch with friends
And that appartment got smaller everyday
Then one night the walls finally closed in
I came home lateShe said where have you been
You used to call and tell me you're on your way
She said if this is how it's gonna be then i quit
She walked out the doorAnd i lost it
No one can make me cry, make me laugh
Make me smile but drive me mad like she does
It's like a curse that is the cure
Better or worse one thing is for sure
It is real loveAnd i don't know what i'd doIf i lost it

I picked myself up off the floor
She walked back through the door
We made love like it was the first time
No one can make me cry, make me laugh
Make me smile but drive me mad like she does
It's like a curse that is the cure
Better or worse one thing is for sure
It is real loveAnd i don't know what i'd doIf i lost it
Oooh, if i lost itI don't want to lose it

no matter what has happned or will happen.. you were the only one that made me feel all
the great emotions that I have ever wanted to experience. I just hope
that one day, I can re-live those experience's

Real feelings from inside

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm older

Now this mountain I must climb
Feels like a world upon my shoulder
I through the clouds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder
I
n my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
I've got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me


* Even though this is just a song, written by someone other than I
the emotions and thoughts that come with the song
should come directly from my soul

I really need you

One look in your eyes and there I see
Just what you mean to me
Here in my heart I believe
Your love is all I'll ever need
Holdin' you close through the nightI need you, look in your eyes and there I see
What happiness really means
The love that we share makes life so sweet
Together we'll always be
This pledge of love feels so right,and I need you
Here and nowI promise to love faithfully
You're all I need
Here and nowI vow to be one with thee
Your love is all I need

Sorry

Sorry

I’m sorry of being so emotional
I'm sorry of being so possessive
I’m sorry that I cry for you
I’m sorry because I can’t live without you
I’m sorry for the tears you shed
I’m sorry for the damage I made
I’m sorry I’ve made you sick
Sorry I hurt you so deep
I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights
I’m sorry for each and every fight
I’m sorry for your pain & agony
I’m sorry for the missing harmony
I’m sorry for my selfish love
I’m sorry for not caring enough
I’m sorry for my restlessness
I’m sorry for the losing grac
I’m sorry my friend I made you mad
I’m sorry darling you are so sad
Sorry for not giving you any happiness
Sorry because it’s my disgrace
I’m sorry for thinking of you so very much
I’m sorry I always miss your touch
I’m sorry of being so mad about you
I’m sorry for my every blue
I’m sorry of being so immature
I’m sorry now that can’t be cured
I’m sorry of being myself
I’m sorry that I’ve failed
I’m sorry and sorry again
I’m sorry of being insane
But believe me that I love you
Should I say sorry for that too?

Overwealming

So, I'm now into the end of the 2nd week of English Composition. I'll be honest, I under estimated this class, and the amount of work that would be required of me. Now, I'm not complaining about all of this., I'm just saying, I have to utilize my time management skills a little more precise. I'm actually enjoying this class, partially due to the teacher, I like her style of teaching. She actually has a sense of humor. I have a descriptive essay due on Mon, I have not even started the homework that is assigned to us every other day. I'm 2 work sheets behind. This just means I have to kick my ass into high gear. I have no doubt that I can do it, I just have to do it!. In 2 Weeks I'll make a post about my final grade and see if I can shock myself. I'm proud of Erica and how well she is doing in here. I think i can learn by example!!!! Love ya babe

2 days of "Fun"

The past 2 days for my wife and I was very mixed up. We volunteered to work for the "KDP"(Kentucky Democratic Party) on Mon and Tue. Our friend told us about it and said it was easy money. So we signed up, I kinda fell bad though because Erica really didn't want to do this at all. I kinda talked her in it. Even then she had rather not been there. What we where supposed to be doing both days was driving around canvassers around different neighborhoods. The first daywe would get payed $75 for roughly six hours. Well the first day we did get our check for $75, but we did no driving. Reason being, theyonly had around 40 people that showed up to canvas, so we got to make phone calls for 4 hours to people that had sighned up to do the job,but not showed up that day and make sure they would be available to canvas on Election day. Exciting huh?! If it wasn't for the storms that we had, I would have much ratherd went driving. They had us doing flippin kitchen detail. can u belive the nerve. Now how is cleaning the dam kitchen helping the dam election. Tell me that. What is worse I was actually doing dishes. Yes I know it's a shock. Even to myself, but this young guy walks in, while I was washing, and looks at me, and sits his dirty ass coffee cup down and walks away. I left it right wear it sit. Shit like he is tooooo god to wash his OWN cup!.

Yesterday was election day, which ment that drivers and canvasers would get paid a little more. So we prepared to drive. To bad we didnt drive on Mon because we recieved the same van and route as we would have went on on Mon. So it was still a uncharted territory for me. My assumption was right , there was atleast twice as many walkers as the day before. Still I was one of the last 4 or 5 vans to leave, which by the way wasn't until 1:00. My van had 6 passengers that varied in age from 17-23. So it was easy to get along with them.On the other hand they tried to slack off too much because I was being cool with them. For thwe most part it was a very boring day, but I recieved $85.


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I'm Back!!

Hello Blog, sorry I've been away for 8 days now *blog pouts* It has been a very,very interesting 8 days let me tell you. Oh blog, where do I start? Alright. lets go back in time 7 days to Halloween night. Oh and was it a Halloween night indeed. Especially on hwy 60.
I wish that I had a more colorful way to express myself and the feelings that I do have, but i do the best I can and if your one of the lucky ones to actually understand me and know where my thoughts are coming from then the way I write is working fine. But in the end i just need a place to release everything that is racing around in my cram filled head. OK.. back on Halloween. What was shocking to myself. wasn't the costumes, even though some of them should have entered into a costume contest. What baffled me was the acts that some people deem OK to do in someone Else's home. Granted drinks was involved,but that gives no right. Myself I was not involved with the hu rah I got in around 1:30 and I was tired as tired can be. Now usually I';m all for a party, but the only thing on my mind was actually laying down together in the same bed with my wife that I actually get to sleep next to 2 days a week. Being deprived of little, but significant things that matter to be puts a big strain on my emotional state as well as my over all self. It was nice. Like I said I'm glad to be back so just keep coming back if you want to find out whats going on in daydreamer's head